Happy Birthday Mom. You are never forgotten...

Its the eve of my biological mothers birthday and I'm finding myself overwhelmed with emotions. I miss her. I wonder what it would have been like having her here today. I know she would be proud of her grand kids and the life I have made for myself. However I can't help but remind myself that because of her I have this comfy life and that maybe this all would be different. Better or worse I don't know. I find that as I have gotten older I think about her more often and wonder about all the "What could have beens" Theres times in my life that make me stop and think about her. I wonder if I look like her(i have been told yes) I wonder if we think similar. Like the same things etc...I just wish I had the opportunities with her that I have had with my kids. I can't imagine my kids not having there mother around. I hope they never have to experience that and that we can grow old together. I hope to live a long life. I hope that my kids know they are loved and cherished. Theres a reason for my life being as is today and my past being as it is. I have learned alot from the present and the past. One thing I know today is that I want to cherish my time with my kids because we are never promised another day. I will never forget you momma you will always be apart of me however little time we had. Your spirit lives in me and I will never forget you. I love my kids as I dreamed you would have loved me if you were here today. I love you. Happy Birthday Mom